I know I’m giving into the feeling of crappiness. I don’t know if I can really help it at this point as I’m coming down from the anger. I hate being lied to. Have the gumption to say what you mean. It’s not that hard. I do it all the time. But don’t try to spare my feelings.
I mentioned a few weeks back that my “whatever” dating venture with the air force boy had been dissolved. What I didn’t mention was the email he sent explaining that he wasn’t in a place for a relationship because his job would always come first. That’s fine. I understand that. But deep down I knew it was bullshit. Then today I found out I was right; He’s in a relationship with someone else. I don’t like being proved right in those cases. I want to believe people are decent and say what they mean. How hard is it to say I just don’t feel the same as I did? I have feelings for someone else? Have the balls to say what you mean. Don’t cop out by saying you aren’t in a place for a relationship but I’m still one of the most interesting people you’ve met. But that’s not even the part that pisses me off the most. It’s the fact that I tried to get out of my last visit to see him and he said “No, I want you here.” Bullshit. Waste of 9 months and half a grand. He’d better not come anywhere near me during the wedding Saturday. I’d hate to make things more awkward by giving him a piece of my mind….a strongly worded piece.
Ugh I’m done. I don’t have the energy for this high school bullshit anymore.
I’m sorry that happened to you Katie. I can TOTALLY relate to what you are saying. I too can’t stand BS lies. It disgusts me. Is it because many men lack the emotional maturity to say what they mean? Who knows, but regardless…enough with their excuses already, right?
What’s with military men too? They are sneaky bastards. Before I left Chicago this marine guy (that for some messed up reason I actually cared about for a long time before I woke up from that illusion)told me that his job came first too, when I revealed my feelings and asked what exactly we were (friends, lovers,etc). Now, I don’t think he’s in a relationship….but it’s still BS and I’m sure he has his fair share of women that he flirts or does whatever with. It’s like, just say you don’t want to be with me and just want to be friends or not. I will deal with it, just as you would deal with whatever the air force guy had to say, ya know? And the mixed signals thing thing you mentioned pisses me off the most too!
In other lie related matters, I found out my dad wants a divorce from my stepmom. She thought he was having an affair. He told her he wasn’t. He was lying. I don’t even want to talk to him right now.
Where are the honest, emotionally mature men, my friend?