I know that’s not what most of you would call this. I believe the common term is “summer vacation”. I haven’t had a summer vacation since before highschool. I am a creature of chaos. I feed upon schedules, meetings, long work days and projects. I cannot be left to my own for one second. This summer is hell.
Now, please consider that I’m am not in the best of moods at this moment. My day consisted of getting up at around 10am, going to the library, walking my dog, napping, eating, copying recipes out of a cookbook and watching TV. To me, that’s pathetic. I want to hang out with people, but there is the slight problem of geography and that everyone has lives except for me. Sure, I have things I could be doing; studying for the GRE, planning my curriculum, learning Spanish, reading 10 books a day…but how much time can one really spend alone with themselves without going mad? Where is the drive if there is an endless amount of time?
It would be so easy to blame this on my poor, beautiful dog Layla. She is the reason why I can’t travel, why I can’t leave home for longer than a day, why I refuse to commute to the city everyday. She loves it here and it’s incredible to see how happy she is and to cuddle up with her day after day. She is a joy and I don’t regret a moment of it…but I’m not quite sure how to admit to people that my dog is my best friend right now.
Okay..I’ll pull myself together and figure something out, just like I always do. I just wish something would work out the way it’s supposed to for once, but it never will.
Katie, maybe it’s time you learned to spend time with yourself?
And, don’t worry about the dog as best friend, that’s why they’re known as mans’ best friend.
Puppies will do it to you every time!
Come visit UIC next week. I’ll bring some books for you to raid.
Katie!
Spend some time with yourself. Its all good. As creatures of chaos, sometimes it is good to just slow down and take it easy. Although I am bored, I am enjoying every moment of it!
I adore you!